if you follow me on twitter, you'll likely already know that january is proving difficult. behind the scenes, there's been a family thing, as well as the massive home repairs that i've been tweeting about. the roof of our building has been leaking for over a year, and due to problems with getting all the money together (let's just say that one of the properties in this shared building deserve more bad words than i could ever come up with!) we're only just managing to get it fixed now, at the point where it now involves ripping out & replacing an entire wall & part of the ceiling in the bedroom. since our household includes a neurotic dog who's scared of men & can't be left on his own if there are workmen about, and a person on the autistic spectrum (me!) who freaks out if things are off-schedule/out of place, it's been awesome. & after nearly two weeks of stress & exhaustion, the unspeakable happened: i forgot how to knit.
i couldn't believe it. i had started a sock for the RSA, but it was the wrong size, so i had to rip it out. but when it came to starting over, i couldn't figure out what to do. ok, i thought, it's a mental block - i've just ripped out these socks, and my brain is rebelling at doing all that work over again. but that's ok - i have other projects on the needles. i'll just work on them for a while, and restart the socks later. so i opened up another project bag - and nothing happened. i sat looking at the yarn & needles & half-finished cardigan front - i was sure if i just thought about it a little, i could remember what to do.
instead, i burst into tears, and had to be put to bed.
luckily, it was only a temporary blip - after some sleep, and a day off (without work, or anyone climbing about the roof with a hammer, or anything to do but relax), i decided to go back to basics.